So today was pretty good actually. Aside the fact that I broke up with Caleb. Yeah, I'm the one who liked him for the longest. But things just weren't working out between him and I. We went out for like two weeks. The first week was pretty easy to get through becaue we saw eachother every day at track and all was good. But track was over and i hadn't seen him in some days. The days felt like months and finally, i just couldn't take it anymore. Sot today i caught him after 7th period and was like "Hey, promise you won't get mad."
"I promise."
"okay so what had happened was-"
"You're breakin up with me, aren't you?"
"Dammit. Um, yeah."
He does this little fake crying thing and i suddenly felt the need to explain my reasoning.
"Well, i never see you. I'm the kind of girl who NEEDS attention from her guy, but i can't get the attention i want from you because you're never around."
"I see what you're saying." And he looked really sad.
"Can we still be friends?"
"yeah."
He starts to walk off.
"Hey! You better come back and give me a damn hug!"
"Oh i see how it is, you break my heart and then want a hug." He teased.
He gave me a hug and we went our separate ways.

I'm not sad or anything because i wasn't super attatched to him. I mean damn, we only went out for like two weeks. That's like nothing. But hey, I'm goin to the Hight School next year and there's gonna b a buncha cute guys :)

My spirits have been lifted!(as you can tell, it doesn't take long for me to get over things like this)

The title explains it all. I wrote this poem in a time of pure angst. I have to be feeling strong emotions to feel any inspiration to write. Now, on to the poem

“Rise and Shine”
by: Tavy

Blink back those tears
I know that they burn
It’ll be all over soon
Let your shredded heart yearn

For peace and rest
From all of this work
For around that corner
Danger does lurk

Another encounter
And this heart just might break
It’s needs are something
Nothing in the world can slake

For now’s the time
To let it all out
Make yourself heard
Scream and shout

Until you are acknowledged
For what you really are
Work a little harder
You’re not that far

From where you want to be
Relief is on it’s way
When that time comes
What will you say?

Think on your toes
No turning back now
Well, here it goes
And this is how

I say what I want
No one interrupt
It’s my time to shine
Your words can’t corrupt

What I’ve worked so hard
To build and maintain
You think it’s nothing
But this is my domain

Poetry is where I go
To get away
Hours upon hours
This is where I stay

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so what'd you think?? Comments are greatly appreciated


BAHAHA!! Guess who goes out with Caleb!! I do!!! *rolls on the ground with excitement* yesssssssss

Current Mood: Content
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What makes me so content you ask? It just so happens that I've met this totally awesome guy named Caleb. Here's the scoop.
Caleb went out with Kari, the chick i told off, earlier in the year. While they were going out they did some stuff eventually taking the leap of no return....if ya know what i mean...Well anyways, they did their thing and finally a bunch of chaos broke out because of parents and school and being within a 100 yard radius of him. So he broke up with her. Kari and Caleb both eventually moved on, like all couples do, and proceeded to move forward with thier love lives. "Is that it?" No, not even close.

While Kari and Caleb are going through thier whole speil, I'm talking to this guy Max. He's a football/baseball playin cutie. Well he used to be anyways. We started off as friends and eventually escalated to more than that. Just when we were on the verge of going out, Kari started talking to Max. *SMASH* That was my world shattering into a million tiny pieces right before my eyes. Max and Kari started talking more and more which resulted in me getting thrown on the back burners. Then there was a big huge blowout as a result between Max, Kari, and I. At first it was me yelling at Max, then it was me yelling at Kari, then Kari yelled back, and i yelled at both of them and just told them to leave me alone. Kari left me alone alright, but she just couldn't seem to keep my name out of her conversations. It was kinda stupid on her part because we have every class together (i know, shoot me) and she was just sitting there going on and on about how much of a bitch i was. Haha like i really care what she thinks. Well i did then. Cause i heard something about fighting, and i was like HELLLLZZZZ NAWWWWWWW. I'm a lover, not a fighter, but i'm not afraid to fight someone like her because i know for a FACT that i won't lose. Kari gets interrogated by a bunch of people about wether of not she's going to fight me and she tells every last one of them no. So i'm like, well where did all that shit come from then. Either way i dropped it. Max on the other hand did take so well to the leave me alone part. After anywhere from 2 weeks to 3 days he would text me saying "Hey, why do you hate be because i go out with Kari, blah blah blah." I'm sitting here like dude, didn't i just tell you last week to leave me alone? I tell him after every argument to leave me alone because i don't want to talk to him anymore and he ALWAYS either calls or texts me. I never answer though.

"Why were you so mad about Kari and Max going out?"(another frequently asked question) Max and I were BEST friends man. We could talk on the phone for like a million hours and never run out of things to talk about. I could call him at any time and know he would listen to what i had to say. We never argued, and he was so much fun to just chill with. But i got pissed because as soon as Kari started talking to him, he started ignoring me. "Ignoring you how?" Saying he would call me back and never doing it. When ever i wanted to talk to him in the halls, i couldn't, because she was there huggin all over him. I couldn't even go hang with him anymore because anywhere we were gonna go, like as a group with a few friends, she was always invited. So i just stopped talking to him. When she goes out with somebody, she is ALWAYS right there beside them. So even if i wanted to talk to Max, i wouldn't be able to because she'd be right there listening. If i tried calling him, in the middle of our conversation, Kari would call and he'd be like, "Hey, Kari's calling, I'll call you back later." and never did.
"You should be mad at Max, not Kari."(Frequently declared statement) If somebody started talking to your best friend so much that your BEST FRIEND didn't pay you any attention, you'd be mad at whoever grabbed their attention. I already had problems with Kari, so Max's choosing her over me just made it a little worse. Eventually, i let it go though. Just like what ever man, i told them i don't want to talk and i still don't.

But back to my good news :)
So Caleb went with Kari or what ever. "Are you using him for revenge on Kari?" No, I'm not. Believe it or not, i actually do like him. He and i are like how me & Max used to be...sort of. Yeah, he's pretty awesome because like yesterday we were talking about something and somehow poetry came up. I was like dude i wrote my mom a poem for mother's day!! He's like read it, read it. So i did. He's like, where'd u steal that from? You didn't write that. I was like yes i did. Then he read some of his poems which were pretty deep and i was like dee.

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Haha, did you get all of that. Like i said, if you can learn the names, you can follow these stories...otherwise you're outta luck.